Trying to help
Whatever wrongs my way
I do not want to help myself
Because I believe it is selfish
One person I reach out to for help
Only wants to help themself
Can’t sleep
Can’t eat
Life is burning like a question
But no one will raise their hand
And answer the one question why.
Why why why?
Never satisfied
your reaction
To my actions
make me feel so cold
How do you think I feel?!
Sensations caress me violently
And all you can do is rape me
Pushing yourself on until you are satisfied
Not understanding you are hurting me
Don’t touch me!
Don’t talk to me!
How dare you call yourself my friend!
What is a friend except someone who cares for you?
Not a friend who cares for themselves
I reached out for you to help me
And you pushed yourself on to me
I want to cry save me!
But I am being strangled by your neglect
I don’t care for myself anymore
I only care how you feel
How you feel about me
Is this what you want?
I hate myself for you
I hurt myself for you
You hurt me for you
Feel better?