There is a fantasy with eyes that burn as dark as coal
A dream made flesh...forged of sorrow, tempered in fire
Pain and fury rage in this tragic angels soul
and for the first time in my life, I am frightened of my own desire
I've known shallow love as flimsy as a spider's webs
And felt emptiness where love should have been
I've seen loneliness as the strength of my friendship ebbs
And felt betrayed by the secret of my private sin
I wonder at the longing I feel
confused by this yearning so unlike me
For this creature...real...yet so unreal
For this rumored promise yet to be.
Am I an angel falling?
Is this true love, this shame?
Is the fault on the one whose name I'm silently calling?
Or am I the one to blame?
I see others love with no remorse
I despise them yet envy them in ways I cannot say
Indulging myself in miserable discourse
in an effort to stay sane just one more day
Love for me is a curse of fate
Through it comes no joy, no bliss, no romantic revel
While I lay sleepless in my bed there is only lust and hate
For the one to whom I gave my Heart...my untouchable angel...My unreachable Devil.