I'd rip your teeth raw rare
with my skin if I could help
the dire state I'm in.
Black black like a bloated tongue
and thick I repeat the words
sung
over and over inside
the picture
it sticks like a fly
on tar paper to the back of my eyes
a nipple-less breast
it's pores bursting black maggots
really you are a clove,
but I see bugs
pustules to push from the dirty pores
like blackheads on the edges of my nose
make my skin burn hot clean pain
and my hands are unclean. I could be
contaminated
and AIDS lives on doorknobs
festers on taps and elevator keys.
Bless the germs that keep my hands red and raw
dry, palm cracked and oozing, exposed
to the germs
rinse, wash, water, rinse, repeat
repeat repeat repeat
My lips are bleeding from
the touch of my sharp brittle nails
to my soft flesh
it yields so why do you pick
pick at it until it tastes like
silver metal jewelry that my
teeth can squeak over and over
and it's this wave of agitation
suffocating chest compressing
adrenaline, cold then hot, then an itch
a tick of the ring of my hands
the flick of my dancing toes
go go go go go go go go go go
you know how to scratch
as maggots fill my head
and leave me unable to rest
my hurried heart
why don't you fucking shutup
illogical voice that is disconnected
and can't possibly belong to me
you don't make sense
but you won't leave.