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I love myself most because I find there is nobody else to love me
The joys are left to enjoy on my own
For the successes I stand solo in celebration
The struggles I face only with the shield of my mind, nothing else to guide me or protect me

And you and the blindness you have for who I am I will never comprehend.
Over and over and over I try to become better and grow in hopes that you will see the true me and know what I am about.
But it only makes me crash harder when you dismiss me.

I'm not going to lie and say I don’t care because I am truly hurting. Devastation doesn’t begin to describe the sorrow.
I don’t trust my friends enough to have my heart be fully exposed to them
But you, my own family, have no care to see my heart at all.
And so it beats and feels and grows only. for. me.

What you call selfishness I call love. For when there is nobody to fuel you with mercy and hope, you don’t have much choice.
I can either see myself with the same uncaring eyes you use, or I can become my own best friend, my own family, my own soulmate.
Call me what you want, but I have decided I AM MY FIRST PRIORITY.

And time alone feels like the best company in the world.