Working with someone
you admire, love, want
to marry and adopt children with
is easy because it is not him
because that is what I want
Relationship working with, for
is good because you live
in different places: at work
you talk on video phone
and he makes sure you don't
run away with all his hard work
so he hears flirt with men at work
he sees me do
all kinds of things to work and success
It is like a spy sex relationship,
james bond but black
I hear him talk to many women and men
I hear flirt with men and women
and I hear him say gay is nothing
so do this and this and that, I know
he hears me talking to gay men and
telling them to close their lovers
so they get married
He is nice and not nice
sexy and not sexy
kind and not kind
He has a live in girlfriend
who know his spy job
November, December
2019, I knew that my image
of his fame and stardom was killed on purpose
he wanted me not to like him at all
Which is what I do now