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Everyone has pain
EVERYONE HAS PAIN (my story)
Everyone has pain.
Everyone suffers from hatred.
You know that speech you Give yourself.
“I have to be a man now”.
As sad as is that speech has to be said.
The moment i spoke it.
I was 6.
I'm not saying my pain is greater then yours.
Everyone suffers in their individual way.
1st day of school.
As children around me excited.
I walk myself through the gate.
As mum lies in hospital.
In my mind only thoughts of mum dying.
My father not bothered by walking me through.
My brother trying to fix my shirt and tie.
Assembly begins.
Children hug parents bye.
In my mind...
“I have to be a man now”
As tears run down my eyes.
The sight of a loved one on hospital bed.
With thoughts and feelings she might pass away.
Your heart and smile heavy.
As you loose faith.
As tears cover my eyes i wipe them away.
I say...
“I have to be a man now”
I understand that some don't get warmth of parents.
But at 6 that shit grows with you as trauma.
As that day i prepared my heart as i thought.
Mum might pass away.
As God saves her...
The trauma still grew.
No friends.
No attention.
Everyone has their own thing going.
Every night i spend the night in my mum's room.
Unable to sleep.
Twisting just to check on her...
“Is she still breathing?”
I lost my sleep.
At 8 years.
My bed was no longer comfortable.
As God saved my mum.
Thank God she's still here.
But the trauma still lives in my heart.
I'm not saying your pain is greater then mine.
But think twice when you look at a person and judge.
By who they are.
What they are.
How they live.
How they look.
God throws us in this world.
Watching and guiding.
But the pain he can shelter.
All he wants from you is hope and faith.
My thoughts distant.
My heart broken.
My soul deepened.
As i loose all my smile and words.
A BLACK SHEEP WAS BORN.
Not just black in my family.
But from the world too.
And I'm deemed by people.
SATANIC.
Because i choose to be in my own world.
To cover up the suffering I've been through.
I grew up.
Alone.
Neglected.
Rejected.
Disappointed.
I'm not saying my pain is greater then yours.
But before you view a person.
Think about your pain.
Then for a second.
Imagine what hazards.
Has that person went through.
To be alive fighting today.
Everyone faces pain.
Mines would write a novel.
I'm not over exaggerating.
But i hope this touches someone.
The world is going to hell....
God is needed within us....
But sometimes...
Don't judge someone for nothing...
Cause judgement...
Might be just what that person needed....
To rob themselves of their own life and soul.
