Lost

I listen to these laid back beats, hoping my mind can catch the melody

Like uninterrupted water I want my rippling emotions to calm to a constant flow of peace.
My mind racing 100 miles an hour and have no idea how to hit the breaks. My life feels full of false starts and bad takes.  Feeling like I'm waiting for something good or bad to come. Just to have a starting point so I can look back and say that's where I've come from. When I try to open up about these thoughts I lose myself in words. Drowning in a sea full of lost adjectives and confusing verbs. So I write down these thoughts cuz paper doesn't forget. It listens and repeats. Never confused but puts what's inside on the outside, so the feelings are not held but hopefully used. And unlike feelings words written cannot be abused. 
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