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Stir and Collide
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Kate Stir and Collide
-Joel Faypon -
June 27, 2014
© Excerpts from an Unwritten Book
It’s striking how our lives seem to have run in parallel. We both were made to give to others with great deal of sacrifice, and we’re tormented while at it. Our emphatic nature made us oblivious that while we were living for others, we almost failed to love ourselves. The pain must have been necessary for us to learn to love and care for ourselves. That, I realized when I counted the years that we have wasted giving, drifting, pretending, hoping, and sometimes dying.
That same pain might have compelled us to break free from our individual ruts and driven us to rearrange and leave the lie of a life that we were living, even when it meant rebelling against our own principles and convictions. Now I know that such lessons are mere preparations for what was about to unfold.
I was already gearing up to face the world and the rest of my life alone when you found me and you said we’re the same. But a brew of regret, wondering, fragments of happy memories, pain and trauma and perhaps even an unexpressed affection, led you to stir the path of our lives into a collision course. You have stirred so perfectly to make our parallel lives collide. You have just created a new possibility for us - a better one. Something that drives us both away from the lure of the bizarre comforts of indifference and numbness.
It’s amazing that you would make an attempt to find me. It is not surprising that I would fall again with you so easily and almost instantly. Or perhaps the feeling has never really left me. There must have been divine intervention in our reconnection. You might as well have saved us both from becoming cold - eternally wondering why good people suffer and how it is to really love and be loved.
