My civil duty to fill...
running with the higher plains people
playing the game of kings and queens
and waiting for the cue to breathe.
I am my own demise...
feeding the beast who feeds on me
hideous and savage, devouring
the inner peace that longs to be.
Voice spewing madness...
claiming my sanity and my world
he dines on my own best intentions
and craves the world to be his own.
Robbing me blind...
and the more I try to conquer this foe
the more it gnashes and tears and gnaws
at me from the inside looking out.
Laughing hysterically...
as my world crumbles from the pressure
from the rupture of my heart
and the convulsion of my soul.
Until it burrows...
into the cavities of my mind
slicing my words and expressions
into plasma soaked lifeless nouns.
Still muttering madness...
beneath the darkest silent night
and damning me to a deeper hell.
Stones break bones...
and words hurled in anger fester
and grow sickening and grotesque
making beautiful coagulate into death.
and death into the miserable beast within
who refuses to die.