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i am so stressed out i cant do this anymore i am a horrible mother girlfriend and person i dont want anyone in my life but MY FAMILY i need them so much and he just refuses to understand and be there for me when i need him most he says i might have post pardum but he is making it worse if its the case like i just feel ten times as shitty when he is around, he makes me feel like i am not good for anything anymore like the only thing we do that is couple like is have sex and honestly i would rather cuddle and watch movies together.. i just want to be betteri am so tired of being depressed i cant handle it anymore my heart is so broken i cant do anything without being depressed and i cant stand his family the only one i like is  marika and amber she is alright sometimes, but right now i am just feeling like i want ot end my life and that is another big reason ineed my family to make me strong i love him so much but i dont feel like he loves me enough he lies all the time like just now he says he was ready to move to NL for me but he is just saying that to make me feel worse he always lies to me i just want hi ot love me i just want us to be happy i want us to be a couple but he doesn't want to do anything together but fuck i just need it to be over my life.... i hurt so bad and i cant stop it i cant leave him i never have been able to so tired of being inlove i just want to be happy on my own but i cant without him and it seems like i cant be with him either because he wantss to be unhappy so that i will leave him and he doesn't have ot be the bad guy.. and his mom  omg she makes me feel like i am the worse parent in the whole world i hate he i cant stand her she is a bitch