My days without you seem bleak
And in some moments unable to speak
My broken heart is no ones fault but my own
And I just can't believe I haven't grown
My brain is a mess
And my heart feels little happiness
If not for my kids who make me smile
My life would no longer feels worthwhile
Months on end in aching pain
My hearting living in constant strain
Fighting my hardest not to fall apart
Trying my best to begin again, restart
But almost a year later and I haven't let go
Everyday I'm still left feeling low
Missing you more than you'll ever see
Still wishing you were here with me
But I ruined in now and its way to late
I've lost the best man I'll ever date
The one who loved me for all that I am
How was I so stupid, goddamn
I will miss him forever and for always, my best friend first and I lost all of him. stop being stupid !! remember how much it hurts