Judge Yeager told me quite frankly
(over two-for-one margaritas and
free hotwings)
that he had never felt the warmth
of genuine love;
nor experienced the thrill of a
lovers' sunset, a waiting heart
or whispered dreams.
He wanted to know where the time had gone,
and what had happened to the fantasies
of his youth,
which was lost when he became the
"somebody" his father wanted him to be;
his father, who had more trophies than scruples.
Judge Yeager had never known the
touch of fragile forget-me-nots
and golden sunsets.
We had another round of drinks;
he told me how he had won his own self trophy
shooting spitballs at the teacher in private school
where his father was chairman of the board;
and how he fell in love with Connie Meadows
because she had bells on her slip and
jingled when she walked.
But Connie married Judge Yeager's father
when she was nineteen, and he was fifty-two.
I told Judge Yeager tropies are not everything,
and, well, just look at poor Connie now...
spending her days in a facility with
twenty-four hour care to be sure she
doesn't take her own life.
We ordered one more drink while I read
a poem about free butterflies and shared sunsets.
It was the first time I had ever seen
Judge Yeager cry.