Suicide Note

Screaming last.

Running fast.



my sweet misery holds me back.



shattered with shame,

Dying from pain.



You tell me you hate me,

Is that really your game?



What are you doing?

Are you trying for fame?



My eyeliner runs..

Where's the guns?



Take a blast at my heart..

Go ahead..it wasn't yours from the start.



Screaming with tears.

Chugging back the beers.



My comfort lies at the bottom of a bottle..

Step on the gas,

Go full throttle.



Laying on the floor,

puking, no more.



There's nothing left of me,

But what you cant see.



You say you cant see through my tears,

Well, Look in the mirrors.



Do you see your answer now?

I hope your proud.



You tell me im like a cloud.

Nothing is clear,

But, All you see is fear.



Im not scared of you.



I hate what you've become,

So go ahead, Make me feel shunned.



You've hurt me before.

Its not new anymore.



Where's the friends to lift me up now..

You cant help me.

Just bury me in the ground.



Dont scream for me.

Dont cry for me,

Just live the life i couldn't ..For me.

Just remember to always be free.



I asked for your help,

But you cant see through my pain.



Where are you now?, That my life ends in vain.



You said you could see me,

but it all was a lie.



Just cut off my air and let me fly.

All i ask, Is you help me to reach the sky.



I hate you now and always will.

You barely fase me, Just like a pill.



You lock me out, Screaming for me to get out.



Dont worry, I hate you too..

See what we've been through?



Why do you hold on to what you never had?

Just scream and let go..

Take your final drag.



go ahead..

Stab at my heart.

It wasnt yours from the start.



My mascara runs.

There's no where to hide.



Just leave me now,

and let me die.



I dont care anymore..

You shut me out, When you first closed that door.

there's nothing left of us anymore.



There's nothing left to say..

So..I guess this was my suicide note today.

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scolonne's picture

I was absolutely engaged in reading this poem...The thoughts have been put in to words in a very nice way..well done and keep on writing :)

ApandaRae's picture

This is my favorite one by you yet. I saw it on the home page under recent posts, I knew it would be amazing just by the title. Your words are so easy to relate to, and they are so very touching. Please never stop, I like reading your words.

shawon1982's picture

the last two lines are extremely appealing and wonderful. keep it up. all the best.


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