Perhaps To Men

This is how I fair
pretending not to care
Like I always do
but I never do
I've met you
these feelings I cannot undo
One by one
time and again
I meet them
Those who give me hope
yet here I mope
I should pick myself up
toughen back up
Still I want to hope
perhaps I am a dope
Its easier this way
do not let them stay
These feelings are useless
making me a mess
To be?
or not to be
Perhaps I shall flee
what shall it be?
I'm going crazy
Shall I feel?
or shall I not
Which course to plot
Time and time again
I make wonderful friends
perhaps to men
This shall be who I am

5/9/12