with you

you call a few minutes past 12am

i just undressed; im getting dressed again

you're about five minutes down the road

i have to freeze for ten so the cars not cold



i arrive and the beer's already popped

i plop on the futon stretching bottom to top

you talk at me, you don't talk to me

i've asked you to stop more than once politely



i'm with you but i'm by myself

i'm with you but i'm by myself

i don't want anybody else

so i'm with you but i'm by myself



its rolling round to nearly 3am

i have to be back to work by ten

i can't sleep; the blankets smell of sweat

you won't stop chain smoking cigarettes



i've heard these stories a thousand times

you have no interest, though, in mine

i can't understand a thing you say

you're too drunk; you'll be sleeping all day



i'm with you but i'm by myself

i'm with you but i'm by myself

i don't want anybody else

so i'm with you but i'm by myself



in your sobriety you're quite grand

though i long to hold your hand

it won't happen you make sure i understand

we're not dating; i'm not your girlfriend



you tell me to just stay the night

i know i shouldn’t but i'm not too bright

in the morning you'll be cranky as hell

saying "you snored" and "i didn't sleep well"



i'm with you but i'm by myself

i'm with you but i'm by myself

i don't want anybody else

so i'm with you but i'm by myself



we never kiss, spoon, or be mushy

i want to talk and i get all pushy

you call me crazy and i get all pissy

you just wish i was thin and prissy



it's almost our one year anniversary

feels almost like 50 if you know what i mean

we cook dinner, we relax and we eat

we don't have sex we just roll over and sleep



i'm with you but i'm by myself

i'm with you but i'm by myself

i don't want anybody else

so i'm with you but i'm by myself



i'm say i'm done; this is the end

i'm never going to talk to you again

you say "ok" and i fill up with sorrow

you say "i'll talk to you tomorrow"



you know i'm weak; i'm furious now

you say i'll never win; no how

i'll keeping playing; my heart on the table

please wake up and give what we've got a label



i'm with you but i'm by myself

i'm with you but i'm by myself

i don't want anybody else

so i'm with you but i'm by myself

Author's Notes/Comments: 

this is what i call a "fakelationship"

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Afzal Shauq's picture

love the logics expressed in this poem with a good idea.. I went through few of your poems and loved them too..you are good poetess and hope you never stop writing and add more poems.. this poem is good and love it..hope you like my poems too.. and let me know if they also touch your heart.. I am basically a peace wisher poet with 6 books published... I am a peace dreamer, love-based peace promoter... hope you be with me... let me share here one of my own famous say with you... ( a friendly smile is the best weapon of war to fight with..afzal shauq