Rather Father

Sick of this bullshit, sick of this life!
I never asked for this world, I never wanted this strife!!!

Can't have a cigarette, can't do Jack shit;
I have sat in my life like it's a shell with no fit!
This life is much pressure, my breath is not fair,
No one cares more, than their breath of fresh air.
I sit here like nothing, as no one gives a fuck,
I knows this daily ‘cos here I am knowing no luck.
My life is so pointless, my mind is so wrong.
Why am I even here, my life aint no song.

My dad can't even love me, myself can't compare.
For I am not like him, myself never share.
He's the one to show me, how to grow and to act,
To love and to supposedly show, that my heart is a beating fact.

If you are reading this Father, I want you to now,
You are a cunt that failed me and for ever you should know.
My Mother has made me and forever you failed me,
Continuous you showed me, you are no man of reality.

You insist that you need to, always just see to.
The needs that you mean to, always believe through.
Your life would be easy, if your children were dead,
Your life would be easy, if it was you that just lead.
Forever you wonder if you should be alone.

Forever I know now, you can never atone.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

For that guy who is supposed to be my Father.