Today I was driven
-by chance-
through my old neighborhood.
I'd almost missed it,
for I'd been overcome
by the misery
of my thoughts.
But then I blinked, and
remembered
The peace of that place,
and the beauty
still retained.
Seems god-awful now,
how much I'd complained.
My heart took a skip.
My soul kept a tear
from my eye.
-I'd even missed the trees-
I longed to stop and
let my fingertips come out to play;
just let them run
up and down the bark,
for awhile.
I inhaled the
impressions left behind
by autumn leaves
and children,
now etched in sidewalks
buried,
by three seasons of
ice.
I'd almost told the driver
to let me off.
I wanted to walk
again
the trek I'd taken
nearly every day.
But all this
had been torn
from me.
- I've never been whole,
since then-
This prior life
is now a down.
when I'm broken,
cold,
I wrap it tight around.
Should I have listened
to the reason
that was handed to me?
Yes, those would-haves,
could haves,
should haves;
-they do get to me-
But now nostalgia's at its end;
time now to move on.
So I let a final glance,
made small talk with the driver,
as we drove away
in another direction.
Fran Hinkle
04/06/06