too beautiful, too beautiful,
i had to ignore
your face-- so easy to adore.
my only restraint was total sabotage
or i would follow your every mirage
assume, presume, become addicted.
you are a wound easily inflicted.
by choice and chance and circumstance
you and i are forbidden romance
as you have your woman and i had my man
i shall hate you, that is my plan.
too charming, too charming,
i could not resist.
how could such sweetness and strength coexist?
such subtle advances i had to have dreamt.
fear of insanity feeds self-contempt.
a hint for a clue, now i must know
would you if i say it could be so...?
sincerely i thought i was mistaken
i never considered a single implication
but your response, so shocking and new
yet i said no, what did i do?
too dejected, too dejected
i see how you feel rejected.
through your eyes your soul was projected.
entranced by the rugged loyalty inside you,
the steely will i used to deny you
is a mystery i will never solve.
i've never known such spontaneous resolve.
but, worse still, is my surprise fate.
i saw it was you, i saw it too late.
by my own subtle divinatory art
somehow i managed to break my own heart.
and sorry.