I know I shouldn't be
straying so much away
but God help me forget
that which should not occur to me!
no matter how, no matter when,
you're so much forbidden.
The sin, beware the sin...
I have not, as yet,
gone in sin,
gratitude to fate,
gratitude to distance.
But no one can tell me
my heart cannot be split
and my mind cannot touch you
in a cold shelter under the rain...
in a warm embrace closing up to me
or a wet kiss brushing my lips...
in my confusion that is to say
if my shying is only firming your grip...
in my failed attempts to push you away
as I weaken before your thrust
in your hardness as we burn closer
in spasmodic shaking after you're in...
God help me forget...
what a stab in the heart it feels...
as it's just not meant
to delve in each other's flesh.