As of late or rather as it seems I have been the person to whom, has to say goodbye, it’s over. Or as I told my therapist earlier this evening the bitch that has to be the bitch. Not that I’m calling myself a bitch or anything I just find it rather interesting that I have to be the one to say goodbye. I’ve decided that this time I will not do it. I will not be the person who has to say it. I will be the person whom waits for the other person to get enough balls to actually say something worth saying. It’s my turn to finally get closure to get the letter to get the … well you know. Sorry I’m so adamant in my wording tonight there is just a time when you finally get tired of the ambiguity and say your turn balls in your court now what you going to do???!!