She had me believing in butches again.
Believing that I could be loved.
Believing that what happened to me in the military wasn?t my fault.
Believing that she understood it.
Today I cried over a woman.
Dark Immensely deep tears rained down from inside my soul.
I wanted to scream, ? I believed you and believed in you?
All the while not feeling the pain of the jagged knife going in and twisting.
Today I cried over a woman.
Looking back I saw the signs.
She said, ? Most butches aren?t faithful.?
The nights when I was in Arizona and things suddenly came up.
Yet stupid me still trusting.
Today I cried over a woman.
?Please be gentle with my heart for I?m a teddy bear,? she said, as I told her the same.
Offering my heart in exchange with the words I love you going from my lips and my
Voice shaking.
Today I cried over a woman, and then I decided to pick myself up, take a phone call, do some sensual yoga, and walked forward being true to myself and started dating again.