Sometimes I get tired of saying it.
I tend to keep asking for forgiveness for just living my life.
You know the nature girl who quit drinking coffee, and loves decaf tea.
There are times when I feel like I can’t ask for it anymore, like when I talk it just gets thrown out, like me, like the trash going out weekly. Yet I continue asking.
How do you ask for forgiveness when you don’t know if you are really forgiven?
Like if anyone knew that I don’t know how to say it and truly mean it anymore.
Tears, I don’t share my tears right now. It is like I can’t be me anymore. I can’t just be the girl who loves dancing under the full moon. I have to take time to handle my responsibilities.
The forethought of a relationship and not taking the time to look at things first.
I try so hard to be humble yet it is hard to ask for it.
Forgiveness.
I am at a point in my life where I cannot feel anymore. I feel the pain of trying to get forgiveness but not being asked to forgive just an intention of rage and disappointment.