I've a new name for myself -
it didn't come too soon,
But just recently I realized
The patterns of roles that I have
and the crossroads I'd stop into - willingly...
is this...
I am THE FALLBACK GIRL.
The one who is always there-
when no one would.
The one who'd always care
when the one who's supposed to care should.
The one who'd be fixing things and hearts
that others have broken -
But the one who more often than not,
turns invisible like a wallpaper-
When things are up and running
Again.
The things go unsaid -
with my family, friends, and at work
Not 'in-charge', but how it came to be?
I don't know...
Sudden changes, maybe.
Destiny?
Or self-imposed responsibility?
Catching those who are falling,
When you are stumbling, yourself.
Wiping other's tears,
While dealing with your own fears.
But I am happy.
For no other reason but by just being there.
Living. Laughing. Learning. Loving...
Sometimes it is a lonely world
being The Fallback Girl.
It's like you're there, but you're not.
It's like you're inside these people's lives
But you are just there for a while
as everyone passes through.
It's like you belong or own something...
but eventually, they aren't yours to keep.
I wish, I could.
xoxo,
The Fallback Girl.