I've been thinking about It again
The It that I said I would never do
The It that should never be done
The It that can offer so much release
I've been thinking about being a coward
Taking the easy way out again
Doing what I said I never would
Abandoning all those who count on me
I've been thinking about what would happen
Those who would still be here wondering
Those who would be hurt by this
Those who would hurt me if I fail
I've been thinking about this downward spiral again
...and wondering if I want to stop this time