Not sure what to do
Not sure how I feel
Needing company
Wanting solotude
Is it better to be alone in a crowd
Or to have true distance
Peace and serenity from everyone
A longing for understanding
Unsure of the unknown
What comes next
Needing solotude
Wanting company
Needing, wanting, nothing, everything
So cold, fevered, unsure about certianty
Sad, mad, encouraged, scared
Senserity, virtue, lies, half truths
Waiting, always waiting...
Why do I wait, what do I wait for
Is it time yet
When, how will I know
Where should I be waiting
Do I need to get away for a while
Do I need to run away
Run from what, from who, from where
Maybe if I run away long enough I will run into the problem and find it
Will I know when I do
What will it look like
I need to run too
I need to run too
I need to run to
Run to, Run to... where
I need to be there
I can see it but where
I will wait there for something
I am waiting my life
Feeling a want a need
Wanting both space and closeness
Confused of what to do
Always put on hold
Always put others first
Conflicting wants and needs
Run away, time to think
Push away, I need no one
Heart aches, is it from running
I haven't yet
My face is wet my teeth are clenched
Go away, leave me alone
I want no one I need no one
Others come first
Push away to protect them
I want to draw near
But can't, I must be alone
Why can't I run
I need no one
Do I protest too much
Who do I tell
Alone at a party
Keeping it that way
No one close
No one can hurt me
I won't be hurt if I push first
Nothing needed Nothing wanted
No joy No sorrow No pain No love
No love?
Love leeds to pain
No pain
No tears
No joy
No one close
Nothing left behind
If I keep running
I won't be hurt
No pain No gain
Nothing to gain fron running
Should I run
Yes, but why
I don't know
I'm confused
I am too close
I want closer
I need to push away
But Why?
Do I need not to push
Should I take off my shoes
WHAT DO I WANT
LEAVE ME ALONE
Do I mean it
Is that for the best
What do I do now