my green eyes rimmed in crimson, like a christmas tree you tell me
a cloud of boiling grey erupts from my mouth, i roar like a draggon
my small body shaking from the coughing
i settle into a summer haze
i never expected the night to end like this, your lips pressing to mine to silence my endless babble
im not good at shutting up, you whisper against my skin
my head floating above my body as you sink into me
i settle into a summer haze
the twigs tangled in my hair make me look like a forest fairy you tell me
i push down the nagging doubt of my last words to you
"should we be doing this?" plays in my head again an again
i settle into a summer haze
i feel dirty and used when we get back to the main cabin
your friends highfive you and mine flock me like small birds
i smile and fake a loud laugh hoping you dont hear how bad im shaking
i settle into a summer haze
the day we leave and go our seperate ways you pull me into your arms
strong and vine like you wrap around me
a firm kiss on my lips and a pat on my ass to send me off
i stir from my summer haze
three long months later and i still feel you inside me
late at night you play in my head, your sad eyes and soft mouth
i try to throw myself into a new relationship, hoping
i'll wake from my summer haze