I need a
Delicatessen of anti depressants
And bottles and jewelry and ugly accessories
Wearing my jean jacket dont take me serious
Harness the power of unlawful functions
To get through
This day off from living and leaning and swaying
And praying and prying and trying and burning
I'm hoping for freedom from daily routine
Just to open my eyes and to not be suprised
Everything that I bring to the table
Gets knocked off when they pull out the cloth
From underneath, all my hopes and my dreams
Crash to the floor so I try no more
I wear a
Fake plastic smile a coat of denial
An unlucky shirt and a belt not in style
Some old crusty shoes and some pants always loose
and some socks that were used
When I ran twenty miles
Breaking a
Habit of binging and lynching my feelings
And cutting my hair just to match with the season
And thinking of reasons to try to fit in
In this world so deranged it's unlikely I'll win