Were you up the night I left?
Did you hear the syllables stressed?
I let the most beautiful girl of my life
Slip away.
She just slipped away,
So now I have to leave.
I have to leave today.
I probably shouldn't speak
Of the affair,
Or of the week
When you were gone and I relayed
That I was staying in those days.
The caffeine and the cigarettes.
I pressed my thoughts, brought on excess
Emotions. And the clarity
I realized when they peaked?
Made me think my situation over.
So if you were awake last night,
And heard me stumble and catch my breath
Then woke up and some minutes spent.
You knew that I'd come back to bed
So you dozed off lightly
And then I left.
The point is that I've never loved you,
Clearly I'm awake right now.
You'll find this note
Only after you ask the darkness
Where your lover is,
And realize that even you too
Can be traded for someone else.