Some say
That war is a matter of
Mother nature, and that
Life is cyclical.
It is true that
I seem to fight the same old wars
That once had let go of me,
The court adjourned,
The jury pleased,
The judge half asleep.
And I keep falling into these gyres
Because I never really change.
It's always the same situation
Only with a different set of faces.
And it does seem that my
Passive state, the one I fall into
On any given day, is war.
Like hereditary madness
Or a love affair gone sour.
But I wouldn't sum all of life
Up that way.
There's 4 a.m. when
The world is still
And I am perfectly alone,
And at peace.
There's moments of beauty, rarely in a woman,
When I find true bliss.
There's driving in my car.
But the best of it
Is sharing and creating art.
Like birthing new life, really.
Thirty years from now
I will most likely die, and
I will most likely die unknown.
But I keep pushing that boulder
Up that hill, because
In the midst of everything else,
Conflict, poverty, insanity, et cetera,
Writing chose me.