One Day

 

You told me once, that one day would come

 

There would be a time when “our love” would reign

 

There would be a time when we’d be together

 

There would be a time when no one else would matter

 

 

 

I sit here now with a broken life

 

I sit here now with a broken heart

 

I sit here now with a broken promise

 

She doesn't deserve any of this

 

 

 

Only one person matters to me now, it’s not you

 

I cheated on the one person who will ever matter to me

 

I cheated her out of the perfect life she believed she had

 

I cheated her out of the happiness and trust she deserved

 

 

 

What do you think you are to me now?

 

You’re a mistake

 

You’re a regret

 

You’re a broken promise

 

 

 

My life’s mission is to repair what you helped to break

 

My life’s mission is to repair the trust I don’t deserve

 

My life’s mission is to repair the love I destroyed

 

She’s my life’s mission, it will never be you

 

 

 

I’ve realized my weakness, my mistake and my foolishness

 

I was a fool to ever think you were a solution

 

I was weak to ever think you could help

 

I was making the biggest mistake of my life

 

 

 

If you have memories of me, remove them from your brain

 

If you have photos of me, delete them from your phone

 

If you have any items that remind you of me, burn them or throw them away

 

The thought that anything you have reminds you of me, disgusts me

 

 

 

All of our memories fill me with disgust and regret

 

Whenever I laughed with you, I think of them with a broken heart

 

Whenever I smiled with you, I think of them with a disgusting soul

 

Whenever I was with you, I see her betrayed and broken

 

 

 

Am I repeating myself?

 

I hope I am, I want to be clear

 

I want to be concise, I want to be unfaltering, I want to be direct

 

I look upon every memory of you as a nightmare that I wish I could wake from

 

 

 

I wish I could erase any trace of you from my brain

 

I wish I could wake up and be who I should have always been

 

I wish I could take it all back, because the truth is…

 

Any happiness I’ve ever given to you, is sadness and pain I’ve given to her

 

 

 

You aren’t worth that and I’m not sorry to say this, it’s the truth

 

If you still believe in one day, it disgusts me

 

If you still believe in one day, it angers me

 

If you still believe in one day, it’s here now

 

 

 

One day was the day I would realize my true love

 

One day was the day I would do anything to fight for my love

 

One day is the day no one else would matter

 

She is my love, it was never, and will never be you

 

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