A Letter To My Father

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Stages of Change

Of my entire worthless life, I have learned that most people would rather hear something beautiful, and be deceived than accept the truth. For example, does my father want to hear that his son is Gay? That his son fell in love with someone who in the end just used him. Of Course not! So I would rather deceive you with something beautiful.

Dear Father,

I am not Gay

I am not sure what rumors you heard, or what people have said

But I am not Gay

Your son is not Gay.

Instead, I’m a man

A very sad man, who hates himself

But don't worry your son is not Gay

But he is learning to hate himself

He hates his face, his speech, his clothes,

He hates his future

But don’t worry your son is still not gay

He’s just depressed

And one day he will commit suicide

But, dont worry

He will make sure

That when he hangs, shoots, or cuts himself

No one will miss him, no one will remember him, no one will care

So there.

I am happy that I have lied to you. That I have made you happy with my beautiful words. But soon my lies will catch up to me. And they will not be as kind as I have been with you.

 

 

Sincerely,

 

John Smith

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This may be different from most poems, but I still feel it expresses what I had felt. Take care all, and continue loving yourselves.

 

As Always, if any questions let me know? 

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