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Self induced heartbreak.. A million hammers, feeling like an internal earthquake.. Fire filled blood, you make me feel like an idiot.. It's like I'm stuck in mud, can't move.. Sinking in what is you.. What is me? Half a brain, overthinking assumptions.. Just let it be. Invisible walls get higher, letting it harder for you to see.. How I really feel, how I want you and me.. Off course you turn away, my defense is kicking.. I'm a runner, automatic run away.. Break it, break this habit.. I'm a coward and I let it control me.. A puppet on puppet strings built of past heartache and painful memories.. Of don't want to get hurt.. I'll half ass the chances and half ass the risks.. But when it comes down to it.. I'm the master of my own destruction.. I destroy what I can have.. So this is me, bare with me.. Kuz I feel you're worth the internal struggle.. I'll cut the strings..break-down, tear it all down.. Re-construct and build.. A new plan, you're in it.. I so badly want to, just bare with me.. Just wrap me in your arms.. Take me home to your heart.