I am frustrated,
lonely and scared.
I don't know why I'm doing this,
I didn't realize I cared.
No matter how much I analyze it,
I can't figure it out.
I can't make sense of this,
I can't remember how to shout.
I can't make myself feel okay,
I just want to drift
out to the oceans calming waves.
wheres there no more pain,
no more confusion.
no more tears,
no more dilusions.
I finally have some clarity,
I'm a freak,
I'm also me.