if i could say, my life was worth living twice,
if i could be buried without all of the regrets,
it's so hard for me to forgive you this time,
but it's just so much harder for me to forget.
if i could do it all again,
i wouldn't trust you the way i did before.
and if i could do it all again,
i'd ask you to leave my life and close the door.
close the door so i can turn off the lights,
close the door, you're not welcome in my life.
i won't expect you to help me when i fall,
i know you won't catch me, you won't do anything at all.
if i could do it all again,
i won't be here right now begging for your love.
if i could do it all again,
i won't look down no more, i'll only look above.
you pretend that nothing has happened,
and you think that nothing is wrong.
i thought you cared for my aching heart,
but now i know who you were all along.