My heart is full of despair and sorrow
From the day you've left me all alone
Giving away that love you borrow
Words all gone as the wind blown
Love turns instantly to an awful hate
Days passed with a gloomy haze
I cried everyday but now it's too late
I've pushed you away in a total daze
Hate turns to desperate longing
Those moments we shared clings everywhere
Now I know what piece of my life is missing
Still this broken heart is looking for you somewhere
All the pain I feel and the tears I shed
There's no one worth it but you my friend
I'll wait for you and keep this love instead
Until you come back as I hope you intend
I'm keeping my distance for both of us to know
You and I are destined for each other after all
Sooner or later, maybe as I wake up tomorrow
We'll be catching each other as we fall
Author's Notes/Comments:
Just when you thought you're moving on, memories flood your mind and then you'll ask yourself: Do I deserve his love? All this time, I am blinded by the hurt, the pain and the tears but then I realized, Am I the only one hurting? Sometimes, because of the pain we feel, we push away all the possiblity of reconciliation. Because of the hurt, our ego, our pride eats up all the rational part of us. We tend to hurt back the one who hurts us, we tend to push away the one who left us but at the end of the day, thinking of a happy ending with that person gives us the realization that maybe, just maybe, we also have been not worth of all the effort. We become selfish, we become self-preserve that we ignored the fact that maybe, we didn't just broaden our understanding. Love is about understanding. Love is patient even the bible says. And with that, you're alone, hoping and praying for second chance.