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So what if I lied to myself?

What if I convinced myself that I didn’t need you?

But all along I knew I did

That’s exactly how I feel

I’m as out of place as the new kid on the block

You still have my love on lock

I didn’t wanna leave you

I didn’t want us to end

But I wanted to be really happy I didn’t want to pretend

I wanted you to understand exactly how I felt

I wanted you to be sorry for everything that happened

But even though you said you were something told me you weren’t

And even though I don’t know if I could ever love another the way I love you

I refuse to be sad, I refuse to be blue

I refuse to let you back in like you expect me to do

Unless with you there is some change of heart

Unless you understand my emotions

Unless you take the time to care

Unless you emit the effort I feel I deserve

For standing by you so long, for being your girl

For believing in you no matter what

For loving with everything I had

For every single tear drop

I used to cry so much over you

And the more pain, the less pleasure left me feeling so used

The inability to care made me wonder why I was wasting my time there

The cheating, and lying, and talking to random girls

Was breaking me down

I was getting so paranoid

I was a jealous wreck

You couldn’t have loved me, you showed me no respect

Everything was whatever this, or leave me alone

I felt so lonely, you always left me alone

You couldn’t do what I asked there was always some excuse

When I left your side at the end of our time

I would feel so mistreated

I just got tired of feeling so unhealthy

Of being so depressed

I got tired of everything!

I got tired of you!

I miss you still

More than I can explain

I believe I belong to you

But maybe I’m crazy like you tell people I am

I’m sorry that I was crazy about you

Maybe that was my downfall

Maybe I should’ve never let you know how you lit up my world

I’m trying to get used to being a single girl.