I am in turmoil,
Not because of her,
But because of myself.
My choices,
My failures,
My actions,
Have led me here,
To the edge of my sanity,
And I stare at the abyss,
Wishing I could change,
To fix the damage wrought,
To make amends,
And find peace within myself,
But life won't rewind,
So I continue down,
Spiraling further beyond reach,
As she watches,
Blaming herself.
I think this now,
At the edge,
And a tear spills,
Falling to the ground,
Just as I fall into the abyss.