I’ve been running for what seems like forever now
Scared of my feelings in certain situations
Reluctant to follow my guts’ intuitions
And I’m ashamed to say I’ve put myself before You
Ashamed to say I’ve been living life in all the wrong ways
And I’ve nothing to repay Your penance
All the years I stood so pensive afraid of what I thought was the world
Turns out what I was afraid of was me
So, God, if it’s not too much please forgive me
Forgive me for the innocence I abandoned
The sins I branded and bound myself in and with
And though this scar will never fully fade
I pray that by its remains I am reminded its purpose
And though I may never understand
The purpose of all those pensive years pent up in my abounding fears
I will forever understand that they brought me to You
I will forever understand that You brought me to You
But I will never understand how You understood the trials to put me through to