Disinterested

It’s funny how things look in retrospect

I always thought together we’d be perfect

I’ve had plenty of time to dissect

You really never showed me respect

We’d talk a lot and be really yappy

I’ll admit you never were snappy

All I wanted was to make you happy

But I left feeling super crappy

You led me on, and you lied to me

You played my emotions with dishonesty

You stabbed me in the back harshly

You’re a hypocrite and you don’t deserve me

After your denials and excuses

I began with drug and alcohol abuses

I’m not blaming you for these uses

I’m just now making my truces

With myself and cleaning demons

And still knowing you had no reasons

You’re no angel, just a liar with seasons

Deceitfully hiding your treasons

I’ve been clear from the start

Of my intentions and done my part

I had loved you with my whole heart

You’re a fool to think it ever did depart

We both always wanted a family

But you ruined that quickly

Trying to hide from a sense of reality

Crushing what I thought would be destiny

For a long time I was in a haze

Low self-esteem, mind in a maze

I can see clearly now this phase

No more of your fake praise

Apparently you can’t talk to me anymore

I know it’s another excuse and one less chore

We don’t have a reason to speak for

I can now open a lot of new doors

Honestly, I’m not trying to put you down

I’m just keeping the facts around

Yes, I’m calling you out on these accounts

Maybe it’ll help me sleep more sound

I thought you were unlike the rest

You’re not, so I move on with my quest

Although I wish you the best

Like you, I’ve lost interest

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Wrote on: Sept. 10. 2007

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