i cry dese tears/ and fight the desire/ to cutt and to bleed/ the way i used to be/ i drink this bottle/ my drug/ my anti-you/ i punch the walls/ these bruises come out/ the old and the new/ who are you to me/ but a face i want to bleed/ broken mind/ broken soul/ this heart you've stabbed/ a million times/ this heart that breaks/ over and over again/ not like you care/ you handed me the knife/ the gun in hand/ i'm losing this life/ no bullets, just words/ why do i care so much/ strive to be/ what you want me to be/ i listen and obey/ but it never seems to be/ i am wrong/ a failure and disgrace/ who am i to you/ but a burden and a shame/ so let me leave/ i'm out of sight/ invisible to you/ i'll walk out of your life/ with wounded memories/ i hope to forget/ time won't let go/ but my mind will start to blurr/ when the alcohol takes it's toll/ i'm not there anymore