losing self-control/ i don't drink/ i don't do drugs/ yet, it feels/ like my world's crashing down/ hallucinating/ of ghosts and death/ going crazy/ cuz there's nothing there/ i'm paranoid/ i'm insane/ cuz what i see/ it's not really there/ reality is the truth/ hope is the lie/ to dream a dream/ is a nightmare to me/ trapped in my own head/ my brain's sending me messages/ shaking/ quivering/ it's scaring me so bad/ voices in my head/ talk to me/ whisper to me/ how stupid i am/ how i should just go/ go into oblivion/ the world is better without me here../ it's hard to ignore/ the words of truth/ it's hard to turn my back/ when they tell me sweet words/ of death.. / how good it would be/ not to be suffering/ not to be in pain/ but than my friends come/ and turn me around/ they make the pain go away/ the whispering voices/ they chase away/ but than when they're gone/ it's starts up again/ the voices/ the whispers/ the temptation/ the emotions/ i'm trying..