I want to cease to exist, but I know I’m not going to
Just remain dead to everyone but myself
You want nothing from me, because I don’t have anything
And nothing is bound to go right
Everything is bound
To keep me grounded
Six feet under
That’s where I’d rather be
Because nobody ever seems to care
When it all comes down to me
Now I know who’s real and who’s fake
Who was really there and who wishes they weren’t
Dead to everyone but myself
What’s keeping me alive?
You’re not keeping me here
I’m going nowhere, I bet you’d like to see me fall
Because you never even knew me, through and through it all
And maybe the fact is that nobody does, including myself
It’s all come down to this, down to nothing left
All these regrets keep flooding back
Becoming so hard to breathe
I should have been myself, but I didn’t care less
Left without knowing what could have been
Have to settle for what never will be
Someone please take hold and never let go
But you will, but you will
I’m already so far out of reach from you
If only it could be closer, if only I could have known
You’ll never give me a chance
You all just leave me dead, so that’s what I’ll always be
I don’t need your problems, I’ve already got my own
There’s no way you could understand
what you’re all putting me through
And I bet you wouldn’t even care if I died today,
because I know you didn’t when I was alive
I tried to reach for help only to get my hands cut off
It’s not like you would understand anyway
You all have everything, while I have nothing
You don’t know how that feels
You’ll never know, because at least you’ve seen the light
You all have hopes and dreams, while I’m left with dirt
But don’t pity me, just understand that
I need something I will never have
And I’m never going to get, so I might as well forget
I lost it and now it’s not coming back
Everyone who was there before just turns their backs
It’s not like you don’t have the time, it’s just that you don’t care
But if I were you, even I wouldn’t care about me
So it’s not like I’d blame you
Everyone is better then me
I don’t even deserve to be
I don’t deserve anything that will never be given to me
Because this isn’t hell, this is reality
I’m most likely to be forgotten
But I thank the few who even bothered to remember
Who even bothered to consider bringing me out of this dirt
But when I’m gone, you’ll all understand
Until then you’ll never know who I am