i remain, a stain upon your life
and through all of this, i know you’re at the end
waiting at the doorway, anticipating my every move
but will i move the right way?
these paths have become all just a blur to me
i know you’re there, awaiting my arrival
awaiting my survival, but broken limbs can only reach so far
i am a problem that you just can’t fix
dead through everything you fit me in
just a piece of plastic processed through this machine
will only take the dirt just to make me clean
all of the wheels have made their mark
grinding me into my place
you’ll never know another face
these machines have already rendered me
and rendered all my senses blind
you are the key to the door
that unlocks my downfall
can i bury the hatchet before it buries me alive?
before you take me away too soon, i never had a chance to die
the flags are already torn and burnt
you are one minute, one second too late
love never came, and i had to settle for hate
now look what you have done to me
you wonder why i can’t stand you, you’re one with my reflection
i can take you apart like no other
the only one who knows you well enough
knows which way the pieces come apart
and what will bring you furthest down
what will take you underground
the angel shall arrive, but seconds late
your salvation shall have to wait
i’m still waiting here for something
an anything to come
the other day i tried to feel
but everything was numb
last one left, although i’m never here
it’s the only way to happiness, although i call it fear
one minute, one second too late
the time has come to seal your fate
and i know you’re not coming back
there’s nothing left of you to return
and my fire is slowly going out
before it had a chance to burn
everything has gone away
leaving me like this, draining me away
loneliness is paradise, nobody to pull the trigger but myself
but even then, there’d be nobody left to see this
just like insects, we feed off each other
and prey off each others minds
consuming for our so-called needs
until the land forever bleeds
we’ll bring it all down again
the dead come out like living beings
this hate comes out like morbid scenes
you can close your eyes, pretend you cannot see this
but it’s already taken you away
i live in the shadow underneath you all
you’re too late to save me now because i’m already dead and gone
already sunk too low, i’ve already left this show
please show me the way to live
i’m taking much more than i can give
you can claw this mask away, but i’ll bet there’s nothing underneath
this is what i am, what you have made of me
the past has become a ghost, already dead in my head
i’m borne anew into this fragile state
should i forgive you or forget you?
for bringing this out of me
i can feel it all slipping away
you can feel it too, understand i’m through
just one verification that i’d never know the way
you can let me out of this cage now
although i’ve got no place to go
to bow before this routine would be the only path to go
don’t ask me the way, because i’d never know
clawing at this stone, you left me here alone
and drowning in this dream, that is periodically a nightmare
the vision has gone black, and everything is endless
you make me throw it all down and i make you take it for me
take the medication for me, i couldn’t bare to
i can’t handle that which you’ve given to me
don’t pretend i don’t know that you’re laughing beneath me
this life was never anything, this life can wait
this life, a laden mask and jaded portrait
this life was death in a disguise
this life could never close your eyes
stay awake through the nightmare
but asleep to the signs
i cannot help you now
you’re beyond my control
one day i tried to live, but nothing came of it