quit trying to flaunt what you don’t have
you see yourself as something you’ll never become
walking the distances inside your head
but you’ll never find the end of the rope
(always back at the beginning)
i’ve given up this time, and turned myself in
because not trying at all is better than trying and failing
i feel i’m not even human, i am just an object
torn apart by this machine, wedged between the nails
(and i shall never see the end of it)
all the windows are there, but still i’m afraid to open them
there’s so much more behind these doors, but i’ll always keep them locked
and maybe i could fly, but this world pounds me into the ground
perhaps one day i could live, but everyone wants to keep me dead
(and everything in-between is slowly disintegrating)
deep down inside, i have everything to hide
you shouldn’t see behind these eyes
i don’t blame you for not wanting to be here
because sometimes i really don’t myself
(i’m compelled to escape, but every time i face a closed door)
if only something about you was close to me
but i’m so far apart from everyone, i always will be
i can’t relate to those so far below me, it’s not like i would want to
i think you all are beneath me, but i’m the one at the bottom
(surrounded by everything, still i have nothing)
first in line, yet sure to be losing
seems it works for everyone else, but not for me
now i know i’ve always been going nowhere
in the end, i guess it wasn’t really meant to be
(the only direction i know is down)
there must be something else, but i’ll never grasp it
you all have what i want, but i’ll never get it
locked up in a cage, all the perfect ones left me numb
how i wish i were something, just someone i could never become
(but do you really think it’s worth the effort?)