As I write down events paragraph
By paragraph, page by page
And no sooner that I start I
Have no silencing thoughts about
The stuff I had just written;
It's all in memory that I intake
To my shallow mind of offerings-
I begin to listen to the words
My mind gives me in order to
Write down what I am thinking.
Seeing that my diary fills up
With both positive and negative
Thoughts is what should be there-
All plain in sight from my pen to paper;
Nothing else to shatter the pages
Of their importantness for my keep;
I know their pages hold stuff
I can no longer change or take back.
The entries I previously wrote were
All so long ago and forgotten until
I decide that I shall read them
Page by page until I have finished-
It will be as if another chapter
Has been told and written about
My life and now a new
Chapter is being written carefully.
The pages fill up and consume
My day by day hopes and dreams,
Flaws and mishaps-but only
To be forgotten as the pages are
Thoroughly filled with feelings and thoughts;
Until the chapter is written
And it is time to get a new diary.
My diarys are totalling up-
One day they could eventually be
Published for the whole world to read
About how good and bad my life was;
It really would be surprising to find
Fans who are my age who read it
And say they could relate to my life.
As the numbers of empty pages lessen,
I become more aware that I need
To read it again before continuing
To fill up the rest of my diary
With thoughts and dreams until
The end of the diary.
The diary will soon be filled up full,
And will tell another chapter
To the story of my life-
Althought I know it might not be
Published one day for the world to see-
The pleasure of writing in it
Has become a sense of comfort
For me and the well being of my life.