I feel as if I’m looking
Through a void in space,
As though I will never find
My accepted place.
I always feel so different
Not as all the rest,
Part of me wants to belong
Part feels like a pest.
I was raised so different
Not with god in mind,
I was raised with love
But not a good kind.
Sometimes I feel worthless
No chance of being right,
Sometimes I feel hopeless
Just give up on the fight.
I want to have a peaceful sleep
One with peaceful dreams,
Not one with hate and monsters
Not ones with screams.
I want to trust this God
Give him my whole heart,
I go to online lessons
And still don’t know where to start