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That Girl
February 17, 2012
By Taylor Springs
you see that girl?
nobody sees that girl
you see that girl?
nobody wants that girl
ignore as if I am not there
just another empty chair
I could be screaming in your face
and you wouldn’t hear nor care
not one second thought
is thrown my way
I’m pushed to the side
like a dull razor blade
I hear the passion
see the love
and feel the awkward way
I’m pushed out, with a silent shove
their silence cuts so deep
I’m losing most control
unsure of what hurts the most
my opinions and additions
are gobbled up and used
but again I’m thrown aside
broken down and worthless
I am not quite held together
I’m bursting at the seams
I know exactly how I feel
but I wonder what they see
I am a million pieces
not quite a solid shape
my feet are not
my legs are not
my body is not
mine
words come out
but I do not make them
I smile
but I think I fake them
I cannot write
I cannot speak
I cannot even be
The circle could be round without me
knees weak
hands are shaking
all these stares are penetrating
I feel as if I’m half my size
I try to blend into the crowd
but I can’t escape their eyes
I show up but I am not here
and I cry because I do not feel
as much as I bend
and as much as I twist
I am the piece that does not fit
I’d rather embarrass myself on purpose
and know how it will end
than surprise myself
and make a mistake
in front
of all
those people
