You slit your wrists and I cry for you.
The blood, and your love,
run out onto the dirty tile where you sit.
Your tears fall and mix with the dark red,
And my heart just sinks,
sinks so deep into this eternal blackness.
Don't you know they all love you?
Can't you feel me here with you?
You can't go out like this....you can't be me.
Don't be blind to the world and what I didn't see,
Don't dismiss the love needed to be released,
and most of all.....don't be ME.
When I left this world I was selfish.
I didn't think of you,
or what my pain would do in your eyes.
My heart was plagued with hatred and disruption;
Before I pulled the trigger,
i didn't think of what I'd do to your thoughts.
Didn't know that I had meant so much,
Didn't know how much you or anyone else cared;
all because I didn't WANT to believe.
You admired me; why didn't I see?
Now it's too late,
and you're leaving selfish like me.
The pain I feel now must be a hundred times worse,
Because I could do nothing
to stop that blade or that seeping blood
....or even those tears that mix.....
I scream at you, curse at you, reach for you;
But you just sit there,
crying and bleeding all over the floor.
Don't follow in your sister's footsteps.
You don't deserve this fate;
hurry, cry out before it's too late!!
And I only pray that someone will come
To your rescue,
but home alone; why isn't anyone here?
Oh my dear, stop this obscenity!!
Let the phone ring now and save you from this;
Let my corpse come to life and knock upon the door.
Don't just sit there and let the red stain your life;
.....don't be like ME.
I watch as you lay down, sprawled-eagle upon the floor.
You close your eyes and whisper,
"it's all just so unfair...."
And these burning tears I make don't fall upon you;
They stick there,
trapped in my eyes like that vision of you.
Won't anyone notice? Won't anyone care?
This must truly be hell; to watch you leave in this way.
To watch as you just die....so selfishly.....
and the worst part is.....
.....You're just like ME.