Messaging

Who are you messaging?

why do you seem to be able to carry a conversation with anyone else but me

Am I your comfort 

do you not feel the need to communicate with me

 

are you satisfied with our relationship 

do we only have a friendship 

 

I wish you could talk to me more

i wish you made me feel you wanted to be with me

I wish their was no doubt within 

your lack of communication causes doubt 

your quick to anger when I do or say something I'm not supposed to 

or you think I'm stupid in my statement 

 

is it hard to be with me 

communicate with me 

grow with me

learn with me 

 

if you don't think about me all day 

if you don't message to talk to me

then what's the point 

I want to feel loved 

I want to feel needed 

right now 

I feel hollow 

waiting for you 

 

when can I expect these messages 

when I see you constant on your phone 

typing 

replying 

maybe even smiling

i am slowly dying 

why can't I be the one that makes you feel that way 

 

I just want to love 

and be loved

why the fuck are we here 

how have I allowed this 

why do you think it is ok 

I feel so fucking low

i dont Know if I can come out of this 

 

please communicate with me

tell me where I stand 

I communicate through writing 

I can't speak 

you make me feel guilty for feeling this way 

I keep it inside 

it is killing me slowly 

when will I allow this to vocalized 

inside is a battle

outside you wouldn't know