it's 4 am again
taking handfuls of pink tablets
no matter how many in my mouth
i still can't fall asleep
shadow figures wave around
nightmare like state achieved
accidental threshold crossing
kind of fearful and afraid
my heart is beating
out of my chest
blood pressure and heart rate
unstable fluctuations
afraid i'm going to die
24 hours of all of it
i just want it to end
curled up in a ball
i finally pass out
not to wake again for days